Life as a Noble now a warrior

I went to the Ruler to be his bodyguard and we were having sacrifices today.It was going to be hard for me because I hate seeing people getting beheaded.So we were going to the sacraficing room.But i hate seeing blood i was very nervous because i might blurt out and get killed.So when my old family/friend came in i was wondering what happened.I remember that he was stuck in the the tunnel.And he got caught.

So now since i am a warrior i have to obey my ruler,i have to see my friend get killed.And then he got sacrificed and i was going to have to be there to see him.The after they stabbed him i was hurting inside but i was trying not to show it.So my ruler says what wrong with you,all i could say was nothing.Then the took his heart out and smashed it all out as the blood was coming onto the faces.Then the put it in the bucket and mixed with the rest of the blood they had.